So... I did it.
A friend called me and told me he was in town. This friend just happened to lose his virginity to me about three years ago in a freak accident. lol. We just shrugged and parted ways. He called me and long story short asked if I wanted to do the horizontal mambo with him. Initially, I was going to say no but then the little devil on my left shoulder said, "Why not?"
So he came over and .... *grin* I made him crawl through my window so "he wouldn't wake my roommates" but really it was just to see if he would do it. - he did - And I started to say something and he just grabbed me and stuck his tongue down my throat. *sigh* Don't men know this isn't sexy? Stop being really bad at kissing, mk? It was almost like it didn't matter if I kissed back. So we fell to the bed and ..... fast forward .... we were sitting there staring at the ceiling and I am completely unashamed to say that I just started laughing. Tears falling, gut wrenching laughter.
Casual sex really was meaningless. No emotion, guilt, love, or intense feeling of any kind. It was a big surprise to me. So, .... whatever I guess. It didn't help or hinder me but it was better than some self love for a night. I still think that romantic, love-filled sex is more satisfying but casual sex is A LOT less complicated. Is this what grown-ups do? Or are they just clueless kids with experience?
~Evangaline
